Trying

I'm trying to
think of something sweet
to say to you,
but I don't remember the ABCs.

I'm trying to
carry the weight of the world
for you,
but it brings me to my knees.

I'm trying to
hold your hand in the snow,
but all I can feel
is the palm of your glove.

I'm trying to
look at the photos you send,
but I can't seem to find your smile.

I'm looking over
all the letters you send,
but I can't read between the lines.

I'm trying to
think of something better than today,
but it seems too far away.